the inability to think for our parent's sakes and pockets

you buy what you need, that's what they used to say a long time ago when i shopped.

you buy what you like, that's what they used to say not so long ago.

you buy what you need, like and don't like also can, that's not what they say now though it's what my brother does.

i'm not jealous like he thinks i am (of course i will be a little jealous, where got brother see parents buy you 3X the amount of things than they bought for him will not jealous, it's just human), i'm just thinking on behalf of our parents and the shallower-than-before pockets they now have, but he just doesn't get it cause he's ignorant and selfish - 'why you complain so much, are you jealous?'

on top of buying 3 shirts, 2 jeans, 1 shorts and a bag on the Malaysia trip two days ago, he bought a new handphone which was quite really ugly but costs $198, may not be a lot to some, but can be considered quite a lot for a upgrade-your-plan phone. when i told him it was ugly, he said i again was jealous, but mother and sister said the same regarding the phone's looks haha. and he was supposed to pay for the phone himself but i think he's gonna keep quiet about it till dad doesn't bother collecting the money anymore.

i'm not grumbling about him here even though i don't like him pretty openly haha, but my point here is that with someone who spends like that and gives a shit attitude when you try to put a good point across doesn't deserve any sympathy or charity. but in fact deserves to be punished for whatever flaws he has cause he doesn't seem to change over time. he has to learn how to treasure what he has, and draw a fine line between what's needed and what's not. by the way, my parents only reprimand him for whatever shit he does, like washing the pair of jeans once every 2 wears (when jeans are supposed to last long times haha which are like 3-4 weeks for me and longer for others), they don't punish him or make sure he learns. that's why my brother remains a bastard for the most of the time, and is my friend for the minority of the time i see him.

i'm not busteding him here, but i hope everyone learns from whatever he is not and maybe can relate to me on similar members of the family you really wish to kick in the ass but can't cause of family manners and 'appropriate' respect. there are a lot more things i am not very contended with reference to him, but it's just long and naggy to talk about it here, you can tell me if you want to know about it, i surely tell you in face. many things about his uncountable bad habits, his gay sexuality etc.

imma go play some guitar now and i really want to become better. but saying like this is not going to work.

20/12/08, 11:31pm.